State Of The Heart

This is by far my most personal article yet. If you, or someone you love has an autoimmune disease, nervous system disorder, memory loss, symptoms of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Fibro Myalgia, Multiple Sclerosis, Lou Gehrig’s disease, or another disease or symptoms with no known cause, and no known cure, you may want to read this.

I have a chronic illness with no known cause, and no known cure, and until now only a few people close to me knew.

I may have dis-covered a cause and a cure, and maybe it can help you too.

My story, in brief:

I have had mild symptoms for over twenty years, but in the last four they have exacerbated greatly, and changed my life and how I live it.

As I’ve written here previously, in 2007 I experienced some traumatic losses and changes in a short, head-spinning period of time. The stress and trauma crescendo-ed on New Year’s Eve 2007 when I collapsed from exhaustion on all levels. I spent the next three months in bed. Although my physical body was ‘down for the count’ this was a time of a huge initiation and quickening for me Spiritually. I opened, learned, and grew a lot during that time. I became acutely aware of my Guides, and others, around me at all times, and our two way communication increased dramatically. I thank God for them helping me through that very scary time.

My body has never fully recovered from that, and I’ve been to several doctors, and had many tests to find out why. Blood tests revealed antibodies to Epstein-Barr virus, the suspected cause of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Multiple Sclerosis – which my mother had – and I have symptoms of both. I was given no answers or treatment plan, but offered anti-depressants, which I refused. I am not depressed, and the side effects are too dangerous – they can cut you off from communication with your Higher Self, or Inner Knowing, cause suicidal thoughts, and more. No thanks! Further, this virus doesn’t intuitively feel like it’s the cause of my symptoms.

I was disappointed at the lack of support and answers from the medical community and began to self treat, which is hit or miss, and limited, as my ability to to work has decreased significantly.

Of course, I went to many healers of different modalities to get to the cause, but none could tell me exactly why I was sick. I did my personal healing work daily, which included forgiveness, prayer, meditation, and repairing my energy field. I tried dozens of supplements, diets, (I am now vegan, and juice daily) exercises, rest, etc., nothing has eased the symptoms for long.

With infrequent exceptions, the only time I have no symptoms in when my heart is open. This includes when I’m in Session with a client, in meditation, and when I’m just feeling peaceful and loving. Love is the God Force, and I endeavor to be in that connection always.

To heal anything you have to find the seed – the primal cause – and pull it out of your energy field.

I asked my Guides many times what the cause of my illness is, and I’ve received different answers each time. Sometimes you have to know what to ask to get a clear answer. I’ve realized that even psychics and Intuitive aren’t given all the answers, because we have our own lessons to learn, and we have to Master our own lives. We have Guides to guide us, not to give us all the answers to our life challenges or make our decisions. However, they do direct us to dis-cover answers ourselves, if we pay attention.

I continued to search myself and the events leading up to my collapse and remembered something that turned out to be significant.

It may just be all in my head.

Dental work.

In 2007 I had several mercury fillings replaced, and then a molar that broke, exposing the center, unsealed part, of the filling inside. I could taste ‘metal’ which meant the mercury-amalgam was was leaking out. I had that tooth removed, but the fillings remained.

I looked up symptoms for mercury poisoning online and found that they are the same as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Fibro Myalgia, the beginning stages of Multiple Sclerosis, and many more no known cause, no known cure diseases. I have 19 out of 30 symptoms on the list!

I remember years ago my brother saying he believed our mother’s MS was caused by her mercury fillings, and yet I still had them ‘installed’. Dentists always assured me they were safe, but I now believe they are misled. I had been warned, and went against my own Inner Knowing by agreeing to have this done. If my mother had this information she may still be alive today, and healthy.

I went back to my doctor and had my blood tested for mercury. It was there, and she assured me the level was safe. However, a little research reveals that a “safe” level of mercury in your body is different for every state! And, how can having any poison in your body be “safe”?

For example: in Connecticut, light bulbs containing mercury must be disposed of as hazardous waste, and yet one of my fillings contain more mercury than one light bulb, and I had ten fillings! How can this be “safe”?!

If you have even one amalgam filling I implore you to do some research.

Just a few more things I learned in my research:

Amalgam fillings are about 50% mercury.

Mercury is stored in the brain, nervous system, and tissues of the body, and does not respond to body cleanses and detox diets. Chelation therapy (pronounced “key lay shun”, heavy metal detox) can remove it.

More and more dentists are mercury-free, but most cannot/will not say that it is dangerous.

Dentists have protocol and guidelines for handling, storing, and discarding amalgam filling material as hazardous waste, but have assured people it is safe to put in their mouths.

You cannot begin chelation until all the fillings are out as it can draw mercury from your teeth and poison you further.

Saliva tests are said to be more accurate than blood tests, and are done before and after chewing a piece of gum to measure the amount of mercury released by the fillings.

Mercury is a common ingredient in many household products, like paint and cleaners, cosmetics like mascara, and bleaching creams, as well as personal products like hemorrhoid ointment. So you get poisoned on both ends!

There are three options for removing the fillings:

1. Holistically. There are two dentists in Massachusetts who remove amalgam fillings in such a way that you don’t ingest the filling or inhale the vapors during removal. They also provide supervised chelation therapy. Costly, with limited insurance coverage.
2. Traditional removal. This method can be dangerous as ‘traditional’ dentists do not take precautions to prevent pieces of the filling from being swallowed as the old filling is broken up. Also, mercury fumes are inhaled. You can become poisoned further.

3.Have the entire tooth pulled and a false tooth used instead. Implants are an option, but contain titanium.Will that turn out to be another metal that causes illness?

I admit I freaked out a bit when I realized I may be poisoned from within my own body, but it gave me something to act on to heal this instead of loading up with toxic meds and giving in. As an Indigo, and hard-headed Aries giving up is not an option for me! I began having my fillings replaced earlier this year, and hope to have them all done sometime in 2012. Once all the mercury is out I’ll begin chelation therapy to detox and give my body the best opportunity to repair the damage done.

What if mercury is not the cause of my illness? What if I have it all removed and don’t get well? The many, many personal stories online from people whose symptoms completely ‘went away’ after the removal of murcury-amalgam fillings give me much hope for complete healing. If this isn’t the cause then at least I will have been proactive and given it my best attempt. If this doesn’t heal me, I’ll keep trying.

Finding the Blessing in illness

Because of this ‘illness’, my body has kept me isolated and in ‘rest’ mode for the better part of four years. During this time I have been vigilant and determined to heal anything that limits me in every way. I have called up every trauma, betrayal, belief, and wound from this lifetime and others to come up and out. I have learned to be reliant on God for everything, and my Knowing has become stronger than my ego-mind. I have had the time and willingness to learn from my Guides that I wouldn’t have had if I were well and working a ‘real job’. This illness may have been a way to get me out of a life incongruent with my Soul’s purpose. Healing is now my ‘real job’ and purpose, and so is sharing what I have learned and experienced with you – so you can heal too.

All content © Susan Sloane 2011                     

Suggested research:

It’s All In Your Head: The Link Between Mercury Amalgams and Illness, by Dr. Hal A. Huggins, DDS

Google Searches to try:

“symptoms of mercury amalgam poisoning”

“new findings on mercury fillings”

“removing mercury fillings”

“mercury in household products”

“mercury in cosmetics”